Music Of My Mind

i had a strange dream last night, kind of cool and bizarre at the same time. i was at some kind of concert, standing next to the person who was going to sing. apparently i knew him, though i don’t know who he is in real life. the music started but at the moment he was supposed to sing, he stayed quiet. the music stopped again. ‘you sing’, someone said to me. ‘just sing what you feel’. so i did, but the only thing that came out was a scream. and it was exactly how i feel in real life. the scream was very long and kept changing tones, and the audience seemed uncomfortable. the guy next to me whispered, ‘what are you doing?’, when all of a sudden the scream turned into a song. and the cool thing is that this is a real song! ‘autumn leaves’, by rachelle ferrell. she’s one of my favourite jazz singers, as i have mentioned before, and in her singing she screams a lot –but then on key^^. so the scream in the dream must have reminded me of the song, and when i started singing it, the band picked up the tune. then i woke up (in the dream) and i was pregnant. someone i do know in real life was sitting on a chair and i walked over as if i were a child, with my arms stretched out. he said, ‘come here’, and i sat down on his lap in a very childlike way, and he put his arms around me. then i woke up for real.